trying to be thankful today...a note to God.

Dear God...
So much crashing down...so much not making sense...so many questions...why God?


Thank you for the trials!

Thank you for the upheaval!

Thank you for the confusion!

Thank you for the tension!

Thank you for the heartache!

Thank you for the tears!

Thank you for the fear!

Thank you for the pit in the center of my stomach!

Thank you for the black cloud that is bearing down on us!

Thank you for the feelings of utter despair and not knowing what next round of heartache tomorrow will bring!!

Thank you for not letting us drop dead in the middle of it from the shear stress!
I know it will all bring you glory some how...some time...

I wish I knew the outcome.

I wish I knew when it would end.

But I thank you in the meantime!!

Thank you for the email from someone that I will get telling me how all that we have endured over the last 19 months has sustained them through something!! I guess that is your purpose in all of this. I hope that it is at least part of it!!!

Have mercy on me, O God, have mercy on me, for in you my soul takes refuge. I will take refuge inthe shadow of your wings until this disaster has passed. I cry out to God Most High, to God, who fulfills his purpose for me!

Psalms 57:1-2

But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you. For surely, O Lord, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield. Psalms 5:11-12

But you are a sheild around me O Lord; you bestow glory on me and lift up my head. To the Lord I cry alooud, and he answers me from his Holy hill. I lie down and sleep; I wake again, because the Lord sustains me . Psalms 3:3-5